Bringing back the feeling of a weekend
Well over the past few months that we have been stuck at home ,the days started feeling like the same day ,constantly waking up to sadness and worse news than the day before. A cycle that would not stop and to the point your day is wake up ,watch a movie ,get depressed and think about like ,see people argue on Twitter ,sigh ,cook,eat ,sleep and repeat.
Well at least that has been my cycle for the first few months of quarantine and I will not sugar coat the situation but it felt like pure insanity . Even when I would watch a movie or a show I would feel this crazy situation if “what is life?” And pure sadness floods in.
LEARNING NEW SKILLS
If you were like me you probably ran to see which new skills or hobbies you could do so that you do not feel like you were not wasting your life away.
I went from regular courses like project management short courses to full blown hobbies, at one point I even started going back into knitting .
It was the only thing that felt useful for me but the days still felt like they were the same and it still felt empty .All I did was add another thing to my endless cycle of daily schedules .
I slowly learnt it wasn’t doing more things every single day that would make me feel better and I had to find a new way to make things feel as if they were normal again and I had control over my life.
Scheduling my weekdays
Honestly almost everyone would agree that the work/school lifestyle was suffocating but that’s what actually made me feel better. Choosing to plan my weeks with a fine proper division with the weekdays and weekends helped me quite a lot.
I signed up for a short course which is still going on from Tuesdays to Fridays mornings with small assignments just to add on to what I am doing which gave me a drive to wake up in the morning.
I made editing schedules and planned all my video lessons and practice to be done on the weekdays only. I planned all my zoom meetings on the weekdays unless it’s a casually zoom call to hang out with friends.
Majority of my online self-paced classes ,have been put on the weekdays and all my upload schedules. To the point I long to see the weekend because I would be free and I would feel free.I finally felt like I differentiated my days and therefore it felt like escaped that suffocating feeling.
The joy of weekends
Waking up two hours later from the usual cycle feels glorious it feels like you have rested for a long time .You finally break out of the cycle .
Having a day where your plans are nothing and your free to do whatever you want is amazing. Just the feeling itself is liberating. You feel like you are in a new zone, to the extent you can go outside and just bask in the sun and look at the tress and just feel cool ,calm and collected.
A weekend where you actually feel like the week ended especially at a time like this is wonderful. It gives me so much freedom and joy and even someone who works at home should adopt to this, they should feel like they have a time to empty their brains and just take a deep breathe and remove all the worries away.
Obviously I do make sure not to overwork myself during the weekdays so that I do not feel extremely tired by the time I reach the weekend. All I need is a slight rest ,some tea and a movie to make things feel a bit better .
So if you ever do feel like your in a cycle it’s not so much necessary to follow what I did to break it but rather try to make your days feel different and so that it can feel like your in a more linear timeline as compared to a looped warped space of imagination.
At least I feel the reality of life and that’s what I enjoy about it. Even as I write this now I feel less pressure ,more control of reality and life than I did in the first few months of quarantine .I took control of my days and found something that worked for me and i enjoy this part of my life.